I can't even focus on this page enough to write a word.
My mind is spinning so fast it feels like it's dying.
I want to reach out, please god let me be heard.
I'm not crazy. I'm just in a coffee shop [[crying|two]].
It all started on that cloudy day.
I was dishing out hadokens like mad. PSH PSH PSH
Didn't notice the controller wasn't connected.
Just a VHS tape of SF2 gameplay. Yeah. He was a clever [[one|3]].
He was the one who would say it's okay for me and my sister to keep playing Mario 64
Even though we had been for hours and he just took a shower
The one who would let me hang out in his room and watch him
even if he was trying so hard to focus on that Starcraft [[match|4]].
The one who realized age didn't matter. We all can be fun
The one who would joke, "Slow and steady wins the race!"
when my cousins were pissed off and convinced I was cheating
Don't be mad. This is the only thing I'm good at. Come [[on|5]].
I can't even begin to describe how much he means to me
How tears are forming in my eyes just thinking of all the times
all the good times and bad times and places in between
But he was always there, even with thousands of miles [[between|6]]
FUCK! Why can't I be like him? Why can't I smile and laugh
How did he strike up that conversation with a woman so fast
I wanna do that. I wanna be that. Please, give me his brain.
I'm sick of failing and feeling scared. Don't want more of the [[same|7]].
Breathe. Calm down. It's gonna be okay.
If you're lucky, you will see him today
you'll laugh about the old times, the good times, the bad
That time Nate and him convinced you that you had the bubonic [[plague|8]]
I wanna go back there. Like it says in the song,
Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol’ days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed [[out|9]].
Yeah, I know dwelling on the past only brings misery.
And planning for the future is its own form of hell
I need to take it day by day, enjoy this [[moment|10]].
The tap of my fingers on the keyboard.
The whir of the fan under the desk.
The cute dogs sleeping a few more hours before the light switches on
The parents who love me more than I give them credit [[for|11]].
Brother, I love you. I wish I could hug you right now.
I hope tonight if you're there, I have the courage to.
Hope I'm not negative and rude because that's not what you do
I'm happy right now...I just don't look that way [[sometimes|12]].
I could write about this for hours
and that's why it matters so much
if you have a sibling, don't treat them like shit
they love you. you love them. try showing love [[instead|13]].
Easier to destroy than to create.
Easier to hate than to love.
Easier to run away than to stay and fight.
Easier to say "no" than [["yes"|14]].
You mean the world to me, brother.
And I know you love me, too.
Gonna end this now, but it's not over
The meaning of life is to love and be loved
so here's a little love for [[you|end]].
"Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them."
-Dalai Lama XIV
Written by Greg Klein